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i love moving, it makes me feel so beautiful, and free. 🕊 how about you? how does your spirit want to move inside this temple of bodily form? in this moment... be it slow, fierce, creative, heart opening, sad... flowing through 🌊⚡️🌊 feeling so grateful for my body today. (even though it’s not always been this way- re 15 years of chronic pain- ive learned from you how to love my body in 1000x ways in the process! the positives +++ of chronic illness life, anyone else?!). . thank you great universe, the dancing synergy of masculine and feminine forces, my parents, and this cosmic, earth energy. it continues to be one wild ride ⚡️
reconnecting to my roots 🌳 It has been 10 years since I have spent more than a week here to visit my parents. I left this home a few months after high school graduation. I changed my name on the airplane ✈️ to California. I met a group of incredible humans for my gap year program- we learned communication skills, how to meditate, spent time cooking, building agreements for our community, and prepping finances for travel. Then we were quickly off to months of venturing, studying, trekking, and volunteering together through South America. Then back to California. Integration. Landing. Presentations and papers. Next all of our parents flew out. We’d been in a full week of prep for the initiation ceremony- fasting, days of silence, building a sweat lodge, facing our old fears, sleep deprivation, holding the beat of the drum for first light, walking up to the sweat lodge together. The heat of fire 🔥 rocks, crying and sweating, the intensity was strong with a cold plunge into the freezing river. We felt like totally new humans. After we gather in a circle, as our parents offer us a gift in releasing us as children and blessing us into our adulthood. The next day we fly off on our own for a solo internship. I chose where I feared//longed to go to most. India. I chopped off all my hair, bc I was on this “doing what I feared most” streak (funny to find out hair is a main symbol of women’s beauty there). I enter south and north India learning Ayurvedic medicine and assisting leprosy patients. I was 19 by that point, had just witnessed two people die in front of my eyes... a week after I had my own second near death experience and was in the hospital. The meaning of life had changed for me. So much more than a name change, a foreign country, or cutting my hair. A change of perspective 💛 Returning to Virginia, now 28, was a surprise, saturating in the landscape of my childhood for these two months has felt so good- to be back, to remember the real core of my values, to reflect on how much I have grown.To feel the countryside where I first fell in love with natural beauty.To love all the older versions of myself- even the challenging middle and high school year ones 👇
you’re so beautiful, i want you to know. in this transition of life, you will grow, through the seasons, through the heartbreaks and waves of grief, through the blooming of excitement and the proud moments of work bearing fruit. this is the medicine of transition. to trust. to trust the in-between, the cycle of endings and beginnings, where the unknown is the only thing out in front of us. because we are in-between stories. a falling into the mystery. well, we are all in a transition in some way. maybe a move, a career change, gender or identity shift, or even an inner sprouting of self awareness. for me it’s felt like a full on year of transition that is still unfolding... . sometimes they are rough + messy, sometimes so subtle that no one on the outside can know or tell. others you may feel like we are floating, fully taken by grace. it’s teaching us. it’s calling forth courage from that deep part of us. it’s bringing vulnerability and connection with those we trust. so if we attune ourselves to the phases of the natural world, we can learn to flow gracefully and effortlessly from one phase to the next. change is a fundamental part of life and can sometimes be painful, chaotic, and disorienting. however, when we feel resourced and grounded in self care, these liminal and in-between states come reaped with insights and powerful opportunities for transformation. we can practice with each breath- taking life in and letting it go. listen in, what is transition teaching you in this season of life? how is it calling you to evolve? then soften into witnessing your breath. where do you notice you may be holding on and resist surrendering to emptiness? you are so courageous, i want you to know. showing up, one step at a time, one ocean wave and then the next. we are all in it together. 🌸 this is the transition card Sonja Lokensgard has been hand painting for the oracle card deck we- Audrey + Sonja + I- are currently creating. if you want in for when it’s first released (likely in 2019) DM me 💕 and ill put you on the list! until then trust your inner oracle in this incredible time of transition
what if the highest expression of personal divine is you, precisely as you are in this moment, in your full, authentic, wounded glory? ⭐️ from outrageous openness by tosha silver
places i go for aesthetic inspiration 🔍 when I have a free afternoon and I am thirsty for some inspo, I get in my car or hop on my bike. I ask to be guided. I follow the inner nudges- go here, turn left, pause, wait, pay attention to that sign. sometimes I end up at boutique shops, museum galleries or design companies. . . other times it’s the tops of mountains, by the side of river beds, or curled up in local book stores. as a child and teenager I used to redesign my room about every month 😆 but being young I had limited funds so I would use what was around. I’d go with my dad to hardware stores to peruse around the painting isle and dream about color palettes. I’d find christmas lights 💡 in the attic and arrange them around the floor of my room. . . I would measure and map out the few furniture items to make mock up-floor plans and ask my family to help me move it around. . . I would create sacred space with what I had, with my imagination. . . There are so many free ways to experience beauty and get inspired ⭐️ . . so, where do you feel expansive? . . if you’re feeling in a rut, get out, shift your energy, go to that place that’s been calling you, or blast that song you’ve been hearing and dance around! . . let inspiration fill you and imagination remind you of your expansive, creative essence.
make art everywhere ✨ smoothie bowls, hair styles, love poems, hill sprints, dance breaks, eye contact, morning solitude, sexual gasps. make it expressive, make it soft, make it direct, make it messy, make it yours. let it be an offering of your wholeness, your freedom, in the present moment. let it be enough. . im here to let you know it is 💋
tune into your subtle nature // your intuitive body // she knows . (🎶 the real jungle sounds are on)
today, this weekend, love on ya self 🌸 im going to go melt into bed for an afternoon nap and envision flower petals all over my body. mhmmm time to soften, what about you?